My Conscious Mind Wants Me to Be a Failure
I’m not going to let it bully me anymore!
Fear of failure and success
Every time something good happens with my writing or podcasting I think it’s just a fluke. It can’t be because what I am doing is good enough or that I’m good enough. Once I get through that fear I begin to think that I will never make it. That my business will fail.
Why does success frighten me so much?
I think it has something to do with letting go of my past and becoming a new person. I am already a new person compared to who I was while I was married. Why am I afraid to change even more? I have found a new comfort zone to live in. If I am to change I will have to learn a lot more about technology and social media. Learning to work on my blog or edit my podcast is a lot of work. I know it will become much easier once I get over my hesitation and do the work. I have already gotten over the most difficult parts. Now I need to learn all of the “extra” things which could actually be kind of fun.
Before I went to school to become a healthcare worker I thought it would be so difficult to learn something totally new. I thought I was too old to learn. I thought I would feel out of place and be the only “older” student. None of those…
