I had to hit my rock bottom and almost lose my life before I could see something was wrong with my existence. It still took me years before I could admit that my relationship was busted and that my faith had almost been destroyed with it.
I am grateful for my awakening. I also know that I ignored the truth that was revealed to me many times. I was so stubbornly set on staying married that I had to almost die before I could open my eyes.
Now I try to live my life in a way where I am awake to the truth instead of hiding from it.