Do You Remember Your First Kiss?

What does it mean if you don’t?

Photo by Jonah Pettrich on Unsplash

I realized something interesting today while I was watching a romantic movie.

I don’t remember the first kiss I had with my ex-husband. Is that strange? Maybe I blocked it out?

I remember my first kiss with my high school boyfriends. I remember the first kiss I ever had. I remember that wayward kiss from a guy I had a crush on in High School.

I can’t remember my first kiss with the man I married. What does that mean?

Maybe I don’t want to remember kissing him ever. Maybe our first kiss wasn’t that great. Apparently, it wasn’t even memorable.

I’m glad I can’t remember it. I’m glad I don’t look back and see romance and feel butterflies. I’m glad it’s over.

I’m going to think of this as a true healing of my spirit.

I am free to kiss someone who will truly love and be loved.



Julia Freeman, Trauma Recovery Coach

I believe survivors of narcissistic abuse and domestic violence deserve to live in freedom and peace.